Monday, July 18, 2011

MIA for Awhile...

Some of you are aware but I thought I would make a quick post to let everyone know that my mom passed away several weeks ago. I thought I would post this pretty picture of her.



Losing her has really been hard. She had dementia and was now living in a skilled nursing facility for the last 2 years. I know she is at peace now. Being there with her at the end was hard but I was able to have closure.





My mom and her sister shared a room in the nursing home and I know she must be lost without her. Here they were together on Thanksgiving a couple years ago.






I have been out of sorts for awhile now. It is strange to lose both my parents. I feel kind of like an orphan with no one that has loved me since I was born. I can't explain it but it is a strange feeling.

I haven't felt like doing any projects or blogging. I thought I better post a little something just to let everyone know what happened to me!

Anyway, my husband and kids have been great. We have been camping some and keeping busy. My oldest leaves for college one month from today so that has caused mixed feelings for me too.

So thank you to everyone for your support. I am amazed that I still have any followers! We'll see how things go and whether I am able to get back into blogging again.

Have a wonderful summer and give those close to you an extra kiss and hug!
Bonnie

18 comments:

  1. I am so sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel. I remember when I lost my parents that I felt so alone and almost in a panic. I still had a DH and children, but I was just soooooo alone. It seemed like my safety net was totally pulled out from under me. God Bless. I will keep you in prayer. Hugs, Marty

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  2. Bonnie, we completely understand. I truly am sorry for your loss. I hope time helps heal your hurt. Enjoy the summer and we are here when you need us.

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  3. I am so sorry for your loss.Losing a parent just turns your world upside down. I've lost my dad and am dealing with dementia with mom so am losing her slowly.
    Just know that she is now restored, healthy, happy and at peace and will be waiting to greet you.
    Blessings, Annette

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  4. Oh Bonnie- I am so glad to see you posting again. It takes a while..and the good thing is that you are actually grieving now. Some of us delay the process. I don't think I grieved the loss of my father for several years and then one day it hit me-he was gone. It really set me back a bit. In the beginning I just kept busy so I didn't have to think about it. The truth is-you are doing it the right way.

    I think part of that "orphaned" feeling is that when your parents are both gone you realize that YOU are now the oldest living generation..that there is no one left to fall back on when you don't feel like the full grown adult you are. I think we see our own mortality a little clearer and know that the life cycle has moved us one step closer to going home...and while there is joy in that-there is also a sort of sucker punch that gets you.

    Just know that you are loved by lots of people and that although your Earthly parents are gone you still have a loving Father that is walking right there with you. That being said, you take as long as you need to grieve. There is no right amount of time...for some people it is a few weeks, for some a few months, for others a year or so.

    One morning you will wake up and realize that you are "back"..back in the real world of living everyday life..and the sadness will be a curtain to the side of life's stage~ Love to you- Diana

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  5. Hi Bonnie!~ Although we miss you, the time away is much needed. I feel so bad for you, as I can't imagine that feeling one day when my Parents are no longer here. I am happy you have a supportive husband and great kids to keep you busy. We will be here when you return.

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  6. bonnie, i am so truly sorry to hear about your mom, and so sorry for your loss. take care.

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  7. So sorry to hear of your mom's passing. She is with her parents though just think of that. The hurt will never completely go away but it will lessen. Sending hugs and prayers your way...

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  8. I'm sorry for your loss. I know that with support you will get through. I lost both parents last year but have many happy memories. Now we are preparing to take in dear M_I_L because she has dementia so I feel for you. My prayers are with you.

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  9. Oh Bonnie, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. My heart just goes out to you. I can only imagine how hard that will be and something most of us will eventually face if we have not already. I have heard lots of people describe the feeling similar to yours. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  10. Oh Bonnie, sweet friend, I am so sorry for your loss and the emptyness you must feel. It's so good to have you family near and I pray that God will give you comfort.

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  11. Bonnie, I'm so, so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what it must be like to lose your parents. I'll be praying for peace for you.

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  12. I am so sorry for your loss, Bonnie. Take care of yourself. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  13. Oh Bonnie, I had no idea my sweet friend! I so know just how you feel as I lost my mom when I was only 25 years old. You do feel like you are left as an orphan but believe me, every day your mom will be with you in every thing you do and when you look in the mirror she will be looking back at you...I know because the older I get, the more I see my own mother in the mirror...sort of odd but true!
    Please remember to take care of you during all this, your mom would have wanted only to know her little girl was doing OK...
    Many hugs,
    Terry...from now SUNNY Oregon...no rain in site!!!

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  14. Bonnie, I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your mom. I have been such a bad blogger and just saw this. I know exactly how you feel and have been worrying about feeling like an orphan as my dad seems to be a little different and worse every time I see him. Enjoy your time with your family and let your heart heal. You have really been through it but have come out stronger for it. You are a true testament to your family of what love is and how you show so much love for everyone around you. Your mom is so proud of you. You are a wonderful daughter, wife and mom. Take care of yourself and hope to see you soon.

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  15. Sorry to hear about your Mother. I was checking my fav blogs and saw your post. I send prayers for peace for your family. I haven't lost my parents yet so I can't even begin to imagine your pain. Thinking of you.

    ~ Lisa from Indiana ~

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  16. O'Bonnie, I'm so sorry to hear about your Mom. Know that you are not alone in how you are feeling because I too have lost both my parents and feel just like you.

    I'm here for you and will be when you return.
    Gail

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  17. I am so sorry for your loss... May God lift you up and carry you through this very difficult time. I will keep you in my prayers.

    God Bless You

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  18. Oh Bonnie! I am so sorry! I have been such a bad follower to so many. I really hate that I missed telling you how sorry I am to hear of your mothers passing! I completely understand how hard it has been for you but know that you were there for her and were such a good daughter. You have been such an inspiration for me! My mom still seems to be holding her own and doesn't seem to be getting any worse. Still makes strange judgements that are very unlike her but still able to function independently for the most part. I can only pray that if things worsen I will be only half of what you were to your mother. I really mean that! My husband lost his Dad this year and his mother passed many years ago and seems to feel alot like you sometimes too, orphaned. There is a home in heaven for us with our families and a father who is still watching over us here on earth. May you find continuous peace in that!

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I know how busy you are and appreciate that you are taking the time to leave me a comment! God Bless! Bonnie

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